Huge guilt feeling

Thank you hormones for making me feel like the biggest piece of poo on the face of this world. :( I don't know what has came over me... I just randomly started crying. I keep thinking that I have nothing to offer. I'm just a big good for nothing. Me and my fiance are both so young. He is younger then I am actually. He is going to college to be an engineer and now working at Academy just to pull in some extra money. I am a sophomore in college. I had to stop going to college this semester to move with him and get our new home together. I was unable to find a job over here since we livein such a small town. Now I am starting to show and no where wants to hire me now. Who would want to hire a pregnant girl right now honestly? I feel just like a huge burden on him. He is trying to handle two big things and I am just at home cleaning and eating and laying around with a baby inside of me. I am going to go back to school next semester because I can't handle this anymore. I may have to cut my semester short though because our baby is due in April. I wonder if any other ladies feel this way? Just good for nothing :( Lately I have been getting really irrated also. I just dont want anyone cuddling with me or hugging me. :( Any ladies have any advice? Please.

Pregnancy so far

I still can't believe there is a little human growing inside of me. It amazes me! I can't believe how far I have really came also. I was terrified of losing this little one. :( Now I'm so happy. But this little one is really giving me a run for my money already. I can't get over the sickness somedays. I am 14 weeks and 1 day today..so far. I got my FIRST doc appointment this afternoon at two..maybe my due date will change. I also get to see Baby M again :o) Baby M better be perky and dancing in my tummy. I keep having nightmares that in my ultrasound the baby will be in bad condition :( IDK what I would do. I just hope today goes great. I'm sure I'll come back home and write something.


:) Lets think positive!